Marcel: 20 Years Without You
- Bernard Jan
- Apr 19
- 1 min read
In Memoriam
Marcel
April 19, 2006–April 19, 2026
I agree and swear on another double and triple the dose, only to stop the inevitable! I agree and swear on all the joys and sorrows, all the uncertainties, my bloody hands and your claws stuck in my arms and legs, only to delay what you are telling me with your every look. I see you are saying goodbye. You are the one who will first take another road, leaving us in chains of sorrow, to wait, believe and hope that we will once again meet. In a world with no promises, in a world which by the hour seems more alien and less the home to which I belong.
If there is such a thing as déja vu, now I need it more than ever. I invoke it. I pray for a break in the repeating of what has already happened. The reason wants to move on, but feelings do not want to unmoor and sail away without you into a new world. It’s hard.... And I’m afraid it will be even harder.
Thank you.
BJ
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